Last embryo transfer!

Well I have not posted in a while because of everything going on but I am about to head in for my final embryo transfer whatever survives the thaw will go in. I am doing in the normal way not surgically, like the last one. It didn't work so there is no reason to do it again besides I really didn't have enough zygotes for that. I had one treatment of acupuncture. It may or may not of helped but it can't hurt. It really was not that bad. I am happy about that. The idea of putting little needles in me was kind of scary but I have heard of a lot of research that says it seems to help if the person is experienced with infertility. If this doesn't work I am going to probably have regular acupuncture treatments for a couple of months and see if we can conceive on our own. Even our fertility specialist says we should be able too. I am just praying this works. I am not getting any younger and I want to have another child and then get off the fertility bandwagon and on with life. So much of my life has revolved around trying to get pregnant that for me it would be nice not to have to identify as infertile all the time but I know part of me will always discuss it with those that are struggling with infertility. I think more people need to talk about it so that it is not like a dirty secret. It is part of how I was made and one of the challenges I must face in my life. It does not make me less of a women or a person just because I have trouble conceiving. I am beautiful and fully a women, it has taken years to feel that way but I think now I am in a point in my life where I am comfortable in my skin. I do not feel less of a women because I can't get pregnant. I can still love and mother any child. Just because the child may or may not come from my body doesn't make a difference. Obviously being a teacher at times I work to let my students see the parent side so that they may have a better understanding of their parents or in the classroom I have to redirect behavior even with highschoolers so I guess I never stop being a parent. I am ready to move forward I just hope that it is with another child very soon. Please pray that the doctor will be able to do this and that one embryo takes and we will be blessed with another child.